Sometime in March, right when all of this COVID 19 stuff started to really hit Arkansas I had minor melt down. I has a lease that was about to run out, friends and family who could die from this disease, and a job in the food industry. I wasn’t sure if I was going to be working or even able to have a stable roof over my head. That with a mixture of my therapy getting deeper and deeper into my PTSD caused me to be overwhelmed with everything.
The easy solution to this was to cut out “unnecessary” things to reduce my personal work load and ease my stress in any areas that I could. Which meant that I had to give up my beloved podcast for a short amount of time. On March 14th I made a tweet about what was going on and then just kind of disappeared while I tried to get my life back together. Luckily I was able to keep my job, find a new place to stay, and I have yet to lose any loved ones to this pandemic.
With the recent BLM marches, and a little bit of a push from friends and family, I have decided it’s time to get back to work! The Gift Of Dysfunction will have a new episode, all on the mental benefits of taking a break, coming out next Friday, July 3rd. In addition, Ive decided it’s time to bring back The Empathy Bug.
The Empathy Bug was my first podcast, and it was dedicated to bringing empathy into the world. The problem was I didn’t have a clear picture of how to do that and I kind of burnt myself out before I really even got started. With the current events going on in America I had an idea. Why not use that platform to educate those on past and current events that have caused suffering. In order to truly understand what a person is going through you have to know where they are coming from, learning their story is the easiest way to do that.
As a white woman who can’t go out to protests because of my mental illnesses, there are a few things I feel like it’s my duty to do in order to help give a voice to those who are begging to be heard. One, is to vote… But that’s obvious. The second, is to speak out in daily life. And the third, is to use what ever platforms I have to give a voice to the stories that are swept over and ignored. I’m going to try and do just that with The Empathy Bug, and if I can help just one person understand why we need a change in our system I will have done my job.
But, I know that’s not why you follow this blog. This podcast and blog is about mental health, and while the world around you does greatly affect that, it’s not something that everyone wants to think about when learning how to cope. So I promise that outside of this post explaining my actions I will not cross the topics again. Anyone who wants to hear me stand on my soap box and preach about basic human rights is more than welcome to tune in on July 10th when I relaunch my old podcast.
Thank you all so much for sticking with me while I was gone these past few months. This break has given me time to clear my head and really get a grasp on what I want to do with my podcasting career and my future. I love you all and I will see you next week.